Fear and Conflict
Being afraid seems to be involuntary; something
beyond your own control. Yet I have said already that only constructive
acts should be involuntary. My control can take over everything that
does not matter, while my guidance can direct everything that does,
if you so choose. Fear cannot be controlled by me, but it can be self-controlled.
Fear prevents me from giving you my control. The presence of fear shows
that you have raised body thoughts to the level of the mind. This removes
them from my control, and makes you feel personally responsible for
them. This is an obvious confusion of levels.
I do not foster level confusion, but you must choose to correct it.
You would not excuse insane behavior on your part by saying you could
not help it. Why should you condone insane thinking? There is a confusion
here that you would do well to look at clearly. You may believe that
you are responsible for what you do, but not for what you think. The
truth is that you are responsible for what you think, because it is
only at this level that you can exercise choice. What you do comes from
what you think. You cannot separate yourself from the truth by "giving"
autonomy to behavior. This is controlled by me automatically as soon
as you place what you think under my guidance. Whenever you are afraid,
it is a sure sign that you have allowed your mind to miscreate and have
not allowed me to guide it.
It is pointless to believe that controlling the outcome of misthought
can result in healing. When you are fearful, you have chosen wrongly.
That is why you feel responsible for it. You must change your mind,
not your behavior, and this is a matter of willingness. You do
not need guidance except at the mind level. Correction belongs only
at the level where change is possible. Change does not mean anything
at the symptom level, where it cannot work.
The correction of fear is your responsibility. When you ask
for release from fear, you are implying that it is not. You should ask,
instead, for help in the conditions that have brought the fear about.
These conditions always entail a willingness to be separate. At that
level you can help it. You are much too tolerant of mind wandering,
and are passively condoning your mind's miscreations. The particular
result does not matter, but the fundamental error does. The correction
is always the same. Before you choose to do anything, ask me if your
choice is in accord with mine. If you are sure that it is, there will
be no fear.
Fear is always a sign of strain, arising whenever what you want conflicts
with what you do. This situation arises in two ways: First, you can
choose to do conflicting things, either simultaneously or successively.
This produces conflicted behavior, which is intolerable to you because
the part of the mind that wants to do something else is outraged. Second,
you can behave as you think you should, but without entirely wanting
to do so. This produces consistent behavior, but entails great strain.
In both cases, the mind and the behavior are out of accord, resulting
in a situation in which you are doing what you do not wholly want to
do. This arouses a sense of coercion that usually produces rage, and
projection is likely to follow. Whenever there is fear, it is because
you have not made up your mind. Your mind is therefore split, and your
behavior inevitably becomes erratic. Correcting at the behavioral level
can shift the error from the first to the second type, but will not
obliterate the fear.
It is possible to reach a state in which you bring your mind under
my guidance without conscious effort, but this implies a willingness
that you have not developed as yet. The Holy Spirit cannot ask more
than you are willing to do. The strength to do comes from your undivided
decision. There is no strain in doing God's will as soon as you recognize
that it is also your own. The lesson here is quite simple, but particularly
apt to be overlooked. I will therefore repeat it, urging you to listen.
Only your mind can produce fear. It does so whenever it is conflicted
in what it wants, producing inevitable strain because wanting and doing
are discordant. This can be corrected only by accepting a unified goal.
The first corrective step in undoing the error is to know first that
the conflict is an expression of fear. Say to yourself that you must
somehow have chosen not to love, or the fear could not have arisen.
Then the whole process of correction becomes nothing more than a series
of pragmatic steps in the larger process of accepting the Atonement
as the remedy. These steps may be summarized in this way:
Know first that this is fear.
Fear arises from lack of love.
The only remedy for lack of love is perfect love.
Perfect love is the Atonement.
I have emphasized that the miracle, or the expression of Atonement,
is always a sign of respect from the worthy to the worthy.
The recognition of this worth is re-established by the Atonement. It
is obvious, then, that when you are afraid, you have placed yourself
in a position where you need Atonement. You have done something loveless,
having chosen without love. This is precisely the situation for which
the Atonement was offered. The need for the remedy inspired its establishment.
As long as you recognize only the need for the remedy, you will remain
fearful. However, as soon as you accept the remedy, you have abolished
the fear. This is how true healing occurs.
Everyone experiences fear. Yet it would take very little right thinking
to realize why fear occurs. Few appreciate the real power of the mind,
and no one remains fully aware of it all the time. However, if you hope
to spare yourself from fear there are some things you must realize,
and realize fully. The mind is very powerful, and never loses its creative
force. It never sleeps. Every instant it is creating. It is hard to
recognize that thought and belief combine into a power surge that can
literally move mountains. It appears at first glance that to believe
such power about yourself is arrogant, but that is not the real reason
you do not believe it. You prefer to believe that your thoughts cannot
exert real influence because you are actually afraid of them. This may
allay awareness of the guilt, but at the cost of perceiving the mind
as impotent. If you believe that what you think is ineffectual you may
cease to be afraid of it, but you are hardly likely to respect it. There
are no idle thoughts. All thinking produces form at some level.