Lesson 69
My grievances hide the light of the world in me.
My grievances hide the light of the world in me.
No one can look upon what your grievances conceal. Because your grievances
are hiding the light of the world in you, everyone stands in darkness,
and you beside him. But as the veil of your grievances is lifted, you
are released with him. Share your salvation now with him who stood beside
you when you were in hell. He is your brother in the light of the world
that saves you both.
Today let us make another real attempt to reach the light in you. Before
we undertake this in our more extended practice period, let us devote
several minutes to thinking about what we are trying to do. We are literally
attempting to get in touch with the salvation of the world. We are trying
to see past the veil of darkness that keeps it concealed. We are trying
to let the veil be lifted, and to see the tears of God's Son disappear
in the sunlight.
Let us begin our longer practice period today with the full realization
that this is so, and with real determination to reach what is dearer
to us than all else. Salvation is our only need. There is no other purpose
here, and no other function to fulfill. Learning salvation is our only
goal. Let us end the ancient search today by finding the light in us,
and holding it up for everyone who searches with us to look upon and
rejoice.
Very quietly now, with your eyes closed, try to let go of all the content
that generally occupies your consciousness. Think of your mind as a
vast circle, surrounded by a layer of heavy, dark clouds. You can see
only the clouds because you seem to be standing outside the circle and
quite apart from it.
From where you stand, you can see no reason to believe there is a brilliant
light hidden by the clouds. The clouds seem to be the only reality.
They seem to be all there is to see. Therefore, you do not attempt to
go through them and past them, which is the only way in which you would
be really convinced of their lack of substance. We will make this attempt
today.
After you have thought about the importance of what you are trying
to do for yourself and the world, try to settle down in perfect stillness,
remembering only how much you want to reach the light in you today,--now!
Determine to go past the clouds. Reach out and touch them in your mind.
Brush them aside with your hand; feel them resting on your cheeks and
forehead and eyelids as you go through them. Go on; clouds cannot stop
you.
If you are doing the exercises properly, you will begin to feel a sense
of being lifted up and carried ahead. Your little effort and small determination
call on the power of the universe to help you, and God Himself will
raise you from darkness into light. You are in accord with His Will.
You cannot fail because your will is His.
Have confidence in your Father today, and be certain that He has heard
you and answered you. You may not recognize His answer yet, but you
can indeed be sure that it is given you and you will yet receive it.
Try, as you attempt to go through the clouds to the light, to hold this
confidence in your mind. Try to remember that you are at last joining
your will to God's. Try to keep the thought clearly in mind that what
you undertake with God must succeed. Then let the power of God work
in you and through you, that His Will and yours be done.
In the shorter practice periods, which you will want to do as often
as possible in view of the importance of today's idea to you and your
happiness, remind yourself that your grievances are hiding the light
of the world from your awareness. Remind yourself also that you are
not searching for it alone, and that you do know where to look for it.
Say, then:
My grievances hide the light of the world in me.
I cannot see what I have hidden.
Yet I want to let it be revealed to me,
for my salvation and the salvation of the world.
Also, be sure to tell yourself:
If I hold this grievance the light of the world
will be hidden from me,
. . . if you are tempted to hold anything against anyone today.